Tears...

8th of December 2007, saturday, i woke up at 7am. washed my face, ate my breakfast, brushed my teeth, took a bath, got dressed and then left for school.

10:30am, i arrived at school. there were no classes in facilities so went directly to the library. there i found my groupmate in infosys and we continued to work on our company study.

12:00pm, me and my groupmate went to class, which is infosys laboratory, but there were also no classes. we only had an evaluation and we are free to go. we decided to coninue to work on our company study and we finished it with many time to spare to work on our take home quiz in infosys.

5:45pm, i finished my take home quiz. i noticed that some of my friends are very depressed. i talked to them but they were not in the mood to talk so left them alone. i decided to read some of the handouts in SPM because there is a quiz coming up.

6:00pm, we were given two handouts, 3 pages each, and told to read it because is included in the quiz. it was an article about Steve Jobs and the other is entitled "Once a technology leader, Japan is now struggling to find its place in the digital age". we read it, answered the questions and got dismissed. i manage to answer the questions however, some of them are incomplete. i hope i got it right because i really need to get high points to pass because earlier this afternoon i had a glimpse of my grade and i realized that i need to be PERFECT to get the necessary grades to pass. you'll think i'm exaggerating but believe me, it's true.

7:35pm, we passed our quizzes finished or not finished. got out of the classroom, went down and i saw many of my friends are drepressed. they said that they were not able to pass their company study on time because it is still incomplete. some of them are crying because they really needed that grade in order to pass. one of them said "kailangan ko karirin ung finals kasi di namin napasa ung company study. yun nalang pagasa ko..." when i heard that, i remembered what i saw in Sir Fantillo's laptop. i realized that if we are not able to pass the company study, i will fail even if i perfected the exam.

i am worried. after seeing the faces of my classmates, i told myself that i will do my best to pass. i'm not afraid of failing. however, failing means that i will have to repeat what we did this term in this subject. its not easy to do company studies and case studies. we spent lots of nights not sleeping in order to finish those studies therefore failing is not an option. plus, the fact that we are experiencing finacial problems that my parents doesn't know where to get the money for my tuition fee. their reason is i only have a few terms left they don't want me to stop. when think about it before i sleep, my tears are coming out slowly from my eyes...

God, please guide me and help me to finish my studies so that my parents will be proud. thank you...